It’s been a while… I’ve been praying for a while. I have been praying that God would use me and make me into a man of integrity, give me wisdom, and patience. I’m serious. I want nothing more than to be a man of God who has integrity.

I have to admit something to you. The last week or so haven’t been the easiest. Part of why I blog is to share my life with you. To share who I am. To share what God is doing in my life. To share what it’s like for me as a husband, a dad, a youth pastor, and as a person living this life. There are going to be times in my life when everything is lined up perfectly. Another reason as to why I blog is because I hope that as you read the insights that I have found in my life that I can encourage you. (Pete Wilson has a great explanation as to why Pastor’s should blog. I love it. Here it is.) Recently, things haven’t been that great. Both of our cars went kaputz, and {we are actually still waiting on God to show us what to do with the van} we have had some dissapointments in the last several days, that have made it difficult to be cheery and positive. I was asked by someone who knows me pretty well today, and who also knows what is swirling around the Gowesky family, “how are you doing?” Do you know what I said? I said, “Good.” And I even had a bit of a cheery overtone in my voice. He replied, “don’t lie to me”. Why do I have to pretend to always be alright?

Right now, we are trying to figure out what to do with our vehicle. We are facing some tough realities, and guess what? I asked for it! You almost could say, I got what I asked for. I’ve been asking for wisdom, and for patience, and for integrity. Well, how did I think that God was going to give that to me? Teach me of course. Show me. Bring me through the things that mold me into the man that God has intended for me to be. These are the things… These are the moments that God has planned to use in my life as a coach uses after his player just got creamed on the last play. “Get up, get your head in the game. Quit feeling sorry for yourself, and learn from what just happened to you. Don’t let it happen again!”

Man is it tough. I’m not sure that this is what I would have asked for if I had known. It’s all good though. God will bring us through. As my friend so wisely told me today, “Keep doing what God has called you to do. Rely on Him. Look for Him to provide the answers. Enjoy every moment with your precious wife and kids.”

He is so right. I have the greatest wife a man could ever want. I have two amazing kids, and I am so blessed.

So, careful what you pray for. Because, you might just get it.

~Peter

P.S. Answer these two questions! I am preaching in two weeks, and I wanted to get some feedback on these topics! Thanks!